Reflections As A Form Of Meditation
Reflections on my life, where I have been, and where I am going – or at least hoping to are one of the reasons this blog is so therapeutic for me.
I am able to put my thoughts and feelings down on paper – (well on the PC) and share them with you.
Perfectionism, is defined as a personality trait characterized by a person’s striving for flawlessness and setting excessively high performance standards, accompanied by overly critical self-evaluations and concerns regarding others’ evaluations.
Imperfect or imperfection is defined as being Not perfect, faulty, incomplete.
All the things that I am.
Have you ever felt like your voice was not being heard? Ever felt lonely in a room or a house full of people?
Even invisible at times? Yes? Well so have I. Do these feelings stem from fear of potential rejection? A lack of connection with those you are surrounded by? Worry of not being good enough?
I know I am not perfect, Because perfection doesn’t exist.
Do you tell yourself not to strive to be perfect – but yet in someways I still do?
I do not publish every post that I write. For many different reasons.
Fear of being judged, being unable to find the right words to get my message across, my mood, the time of day.
Changing my mind about what I want to write about (this is a constant one!)
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This brings me back to reflections of my past and the reasons behind my search for perfection.
Why would anyone seek perfection? It comes down to two things.
Self-image and Self-worth.
Seeking perfection is nothing more than seeking recognition and acceptance from others. If you are perfect then no one can find fault in you. This in turn translates into acceptance right?
Again – Not true. There’s never a perfect time, place, or moment. It has been tough trying to learn this.
Going back in time to find the root of the problem on WHY I seek perfectionism is the route I have to take.
For someone who suffers from OCD and anxiety, there are days when my mind is here, there and everywhere.
I decided to begin a series where I will share with you, in no more than three paragraphs, weekly Monday musings about my life.
My good, bad, funny, sad, interesting, confusing, chaotic, vulnerable, painful, and victorious moments!
An event, a day, a feeling, as I remember it on the day I am writing.
No pre-planning, just whatever comes to me when I sit down to write the post.
Of course, this means it will be random moments from random years in my life, yet hopefully always something you will be able to relate to!
Look out for my monday musings and let me know what you think.
Hope this week bring you lots of positive moments, joy and happiness.
Are you a perfectionist? Do you seek it? Or know anyone who does?
Let me know what your experiences with perfectionists have been in the comments section below.